00;00;12;40 - 00;00;42;04 Plague Doctor And. In early 2020, the plague had begun, and it then became evident to me that human beings would eventually destroy everything we would one day self-destruct before COVID, we appeared to be a thriving empire and New York City felt like the center of the home as if it were the epicenter of the world. 00;00;42;34 - 00;00;57;57 Plague Doctor In 2020, it became the global epicenter of COVID 19. It was more like that the center of an empire on the verge of collapse. It was collapsing, while before that, the events of 2020 now made it painstakingly clear. 00;00;58;36 - 00;01;16;07 Plague Doctor Soon, the streets would become desolate and not in a good way. They were filled with death, illness and desperation. Many stayed isolated, and isolation is what transformed me. I lost my job as the empire began sinking into the river of failure and ego. 00;01;16;39 - 00;01;36;26 Plague Doctor Millions lost their jobs all at once. Those who did not fall into the battlefield without the proper armor delivery workers, nurses, doctors and grocery store workers of poverty wages forced to sacrifice themselves to the plague. I retreated into my own sphere in my own despair. 00;01;36;53 - 00;01;49;35 Plague Doctor Now I walk around the city in my plague mask. I don't know. The exact reasoning is the only thing that feels right, perhaps, is some kind of symbolism. I can't be bothered to think about all that right now. 00;01;51;25 - 00;02;06;53 Plague Doctor Each day, I walk around the city in despair. I have to take the ferry across the river. The rivers felony constant thing in my life is my soul comfort to see the water always flowing. Riding in the boat feels as if the reference embracing me in its arms. 00;02;07;33 - 00;02;21;59 Plague Doctor I know it can also destroy me. I trust a river of people who say I walk beside it and feel a strange bond, a bond I don't feel with humans. Keeps me sane. In life, people want to feel safe. 00;02;22;26 - 00;02;39;34 Plague Doctor They want to feel loved. However, that is not how the world works. We are not safe. Anything can happen at any given time. The world is a frightening, angry place. I once decided to roam around the world. I existed as a director, no given destination. 00;02;40;05 - 00;02;53;02 Plague Doctor I took whatever work I could. Many people think that this is a joyous thing and that traveling is the most fun you will ever have in your life. However, that was not my experience. I witnessed things that should never have been allowed to happen. 00;02;53;36 - 00;03;11;10 Plague Doctor I've wandered from nation to nation and absorbed the pain of the world. I saw the mass exodus of human beings fleeing the bombs in their homeland. I saw children with no shoes stepping over shards of broken glass. I saw starvation, the people rising up against their own governments. 00;03;11;28 - 00;03;24;14 Plague Doctor I accepted that much of this damage is caused by my own government, who would happily ravage any foreign land for their resources or anyone who they claim is a threat. See, the world is safe and secure. Narrative is a lie. 00;03;24;14 - 00;03;43;29 Plague Doctor We tell ourselves to give us the illusion that everything is okay. No, things are not okay. We are fucked unless we have a fundamental change. There's so much darkness. It's hard to see the light, even though I believe that the human race has created beautiful things. 00;03;44;15 - 00;04;03;43 Plague Doctor Sometimes when I hear a song. At home and I have moved to tears and not tears of sadness. I'm just so amazed someone could create that. I see people being festive and enjoying themselves. That makes me happy. I often wished I could be like them. 00;04;04;17 - 00;04;39;56 Plague Doctor However, I feel removed from their society. My mask protects me from being accepted by them. I am not accepted. I can't be hurt. Damascus, my refugee. And some people say I am cynical, but they don't know my experience or my sorrow. 00;04;40;23 - 00;05;05;16 Plague Doctor What gives others the right to tell me how I should feel? I'm dealing with so much inner pain. I write poetry to help with that. Barriers where the butterflies lay petrified by a false gods touch, crank out a groaning dirge through the steel bagpipes and bellowing industry, a song of suicide, an ode to motoring sees the hem 00;05;05;16 - 00;05;28;37 Plague Doctor of smog filled skies and features sterilized. Let the orphans of wailing earth rummage through bones for their discarded dreams. Watches the radiant lakes tracing their eyes. Dark isles growth. Sophie was gone. The heavens have been emptied of color stained gray by smoke and ash are her rise and has collapsed. 00;05;29;02 - 00;05;49;00 Plague Doctor Man's final chapter is being written with the blazing quill and the chair stained tome. When I walk down the streets of the city, I notice everything. I don't want to know this. Everything I know this is sound of the metal gate shaking in the wind. 00;05;49;34 - 00;06;04;32 Plague Doctor It makes the deafening rattling sound that nobody seems to be bothered by. But I feel as an as the rabbit ears and senses and approaching us who aims to kill her and her children. I turn the corner and notice the texture of the brick wall. 00;06;04;57 - 00;06;20;10 Plague Doctor I noticed the red graffiti that proclaims that all cops are bastards. I walk past a sea of people staring down at their phones. They seem oblivious to the world around them. Their next appear to be in the port position similar to our evolutionary ancestors. 00;06;20;39 - 00;06;40;46 Plague Doctor I sometimes get annoyed with them, sometimes even me them. Why do I have to be so aware of everything? Sometimes I get extremely angry. I often feel my father's rage inside of me. I never wanted to inherit it, except by staring in the mirror. 00;06;40;49 - 00;06;58;01 Plague Doctor My own reflection and my mother stares right back at me with fire in his eyes. I don't see there being much hope to save the U.S. empire. I would not want to see that even if I could. It was never desirable to begin with. 00;06;58;30 - 00;07;14;18 Plague Doctor It is founded on the blood of indigenous people. So many innocent people have died for it. I welcome its collapse. I still think there is some hope for humanity. When the empire falls, we must break the chains that bind us to the empire and its toxic ideas. 00;07;14;45 - 00;07;37;20 Plague Doctor I believe we can achieve this, as is the only way we can save ourselves. And. No.